Monday, January 6, 2014

Resolution To Make a Resolution

What is a resolution, exactly? We all think about this word at this time of the year, though perhaps not very deeply. In the past I've set resolutions that fit well with my lifestyle choices at the time: when I wanted to stop using plastic bags, I resolved to bring my own canvas bags to the grocery store, or else buy canvas bags once I got there--the financial penalty being the extra impetus to stick to my goal. Last year I resolved not to shop at Wal-Mart because of the low wages and poor benefits they offer their employers, and I succeeded in this (although not without at least one nightmare in which I was forced to choose between giving my money to Wal-Mart or letting down a friend--long story).

This year, though, I am having a more difficult time settling on a New Year's resolution. By all technicalities I should have come up with one before it became 2014, but better late then never is the mantra for this entry. The reason for my difficulty is that everything I consider is more of a to-do list and less of a goal satisfies one of my less neurotic sensibilities.

A few of my ideas:

1. My doctor once asked me how many hours a day I spend cleaning. I couldn't give a solid answer and have since spent some time considering and mentally tracking this; I thought that tracking my time spent cleaning in an organized digital chart, complete with color coding to indicate the strenuousness of the activity and perhaps the affect it had on my blood sugars. At this suggestion, my husband could barely control the wheel of the car he was driving because of the hysterical laughter this prompted. Perhaps he is on to something...

At least I know I'm not the first one to think of this


2. Cat litter boxes are disgusting. However, if I want to keep my cats around, I need to be able to suck it up and continue to clean said box. I came across a beautiful solution to the problem of having a little box but not wanting to look at a litter box on Pintrest: a decorative piece of furniture that encapsulates the eyesore! While this is a great craft project (and one that would save me around $200 retail to make at home), it's not exactly a resolution.
China, you disappoint me this time

Resolutions seem to need some kind of over-arching long term goal, something that should potentially take all year to accomplish. There are a lot of things I need to work on (fear of pregnancy, fear of high or low blood sugars, fear of failing a grade or doing something foolish that could cost me professionalism points down the road), but these all seem too long term--they will take longer than a year to work through.

There is one goal that meets most of the standard criteria for a "New Year's Resolution", so it may work. Bringing my hemaglobin a1c down to 7.0 was my endocrinologist's goal for me, and I did that in December of 2014; bringing the a1c down below 6.5 is the goal given to me by the specialists over at the Fetal-Maternal Medicine department of EVMS. This reading would mean an average sugar of about 120 mg/dl and would be considered a safe range in case we ever decided to get pregnant. While this is 100% out of the cards right now, it's still a worthwhile health goal and one that might alleviate my hysteria about both my blood sugars and my tocophobia.

I think my resolution for 2014 will be to lower my hemaglobin a1c to 6.5. What do you think? Does anyone have a similar health-based resolution to share?